I have a fever(!), I did not allow my body the rest it needed because I was too manic to sit still, It’s Sunday-not so fun-day, and I discovered a rash on my arms and feet.

I should have gone to bed after finding the rash but I diagnosed myself with lupus instead! I’ll just go to bed next time.



Methotrexate Monday

Today is methotrexate hangover day. I have spent most of the day in bed trying to keep my calm. I am nauseas, dazed, emotional, and depressed. 

My head feels so fragile. I feel my heart thumping. I can hear anxiety in my heart beats and my breath, in and out. My bed feels safe. I can keep my head if I just stay in bed. 

Sleep. I will sleep. Sleep will make it okay.