It has been close to 7 months since my last post. Life post medications is not as wonderful as I expected it to be.
I am still off all of my meds and my health is improving daily, but I have been struggling emotionally. It felt wrong to continue writing about my struggles. I am suppose to be “better”!
I had physical issues for 4.5 years. Psychological issues do not feel as important–who wants to hear about that! What if people think I am weak or too sensitive!
I realize now that it is okay to admit a stroke, two surgeries, and too many medication were more than physically hard on me.
Post-recovery recovery hit me like a ton of bricks. “If you don’t have anything nice to say then don’t say anything at all.” needs to stop running through my head when I try to write. I need to start talking about some things that are not “nice”. I am ready to talk about the last several months. I am ready to tell people what happened during my first surgery, 4.5 years ago, to warrant a second surgery. I am ready to express the anger I have been carrying for 1.5 years. I do hope to share positive things as well. I am not all doom and gloom.
I am a recovering heart patient.
More posts are coming soon!